Wednesday, 2 June 2010

Not doing myself justice, methinks

Lots of people are suffering today. Killings in Cumbria, the funeral of Chloe who died in the bus crash last week, my friend being taken into hospital, and countless awful things occurring all over the world. I'm glad to be alive today, and glad to have so many people to love and be proud of. *Sniff, sniff, sentimental sobbing*! It all made me feel like blogging a little more. So, sorry for the wittering about nonsense that is about to ensue :)

So, in view of my earlier post today, I have decided that something needs to be done. I need to make more of an effort with my creativity. Since I have properly come to the decision that I am going to live in my own head for much of my spare time (for 'spare time' read 'time without children, or other people'), I need to put in the work. I am spending FAR too MUCH time PROCRASTINATING. And it really is about time that I found out what it is that I am trying to say. I'm not talking about writing my book - that's doing just fine, thank you very much. I'm talking about blogging, more specifically. I have this blog, and I think I should use it properly for saying ... important things! LOL! I'm not sure I have important things to say really. But I don't think I'm using my intellect as much as I could, and I should perhaps try to exercise my brain more effectively. But how?

This is my favourite blog at the moment: HYPERBOLE AND A HALF. It's proper funny, and incredibly creative and original. It's also very inspiring, and I always want to get myself some Paintbrush-type software and do some drawings on my computer. I cannot draw, at all. I used to be able to draw, but now I don't have the patience. So I don't buy the Paintbrush-type software, because that's not my thing. It could, perhaps, be my thing, if I put the effort in. But I know that I don't really want to. And really, what would be the point in trying to copy what Allie does in HAAH - I'd look like an idiot, and it would be obvious that I was imitating.
But what is MY thing? Hmmm. I do not know. I guess it has something to do with observing, since that's always what I've been good at. I've always been an outside person looking in. I like that. Sometimes I do like to step in and take part, and even show off a bit (I can do some good stuff, honestly, I can) but mostly I just like to watch what everyone else is doing, and make little comments from time to time.

So, what I'm really trying to say, I suppose, is that I'd like my blog to change a little bit. Not much. Just a little. I'd just like to make it a bit more interesting, more wide-ranging if I can. I don't know about you, but I find that I learn something new most days, and I think I should write about those things, even if it's only so's I don't forget them myself. I guess it's not important to remember everything - like I said earlier, we'll all return to star dust eventually - but some of us note things down, others note down nothing. I'm a noter. That's just how it is.

Witter, witter, witter. What a rambley and silly post this is! He he. Perhaps I should have written in my diary instead, to save you from having to read this messiness :)

Well, g'night all. Be safe, and well, and happy.