Gathering my thoughts

So, I've had a few days off writing.  Haven't written a thing.  Can't even remember how to now.  Better get back to it, before I even forget how to spell simple words.

I've just been reading the hubs of some of the people I follow, and I must say that some of them can really make a person feel inadequate!  I do feel very stupid and ignorant sometimes.  I'm reading hubs that are very atheist-bashing, and I want to have my say and defend my position on God and the Universe, but I find it so very difficult to form my opinions into a cohesive argument.  I just don't enough scientific stuff.  My belief rests in science, and the reason for this is because it has always presented me with much more believable evidence than the Bible has.  But putting this in such a way that properly shows what I think is very difficult.  Now, I have no illusion that a hub on atheism could ever be left alone and not picked to bits and cause a huge debate.  It would attract lots of comments, and ever sentence that wasn't quite finished exquisitely would be ripped apart.  Every point that wasn't backed up with irrefutable evidence would be hammered down into dust.  Well, that's fine - you have to expect that when you attempt to discuss religion, whichever side you come down on.  It's a bit sad that people feel the need to attack the beliefs of others, but there we are - I've done it myself, but I suppose only in defence of my own position when it's been attacked first.  But what I don't want to happen is for readers to think that I'm completely stupid and that what I've written is so basic and flawed and naive that it's not worth commenting on.  So, for this reason I am not rushing into writing a hub on my beliefs - I am going to take my time over it, and maybe post something next year... or maybe the year after.

In other news, I am just finishing up my little creative writing course.  I have two weeks left, and a little homework to do for that.  I always leave it until the last minute - but the good thing about homework for a writing course is that it's absolutely fine to leave it until the last minute, or to even not do it at all!  You can say that you couldn't find your creativity this particular week, you can say that you had a severe mental block.  Marvellous.  Of course, I haven't done that - I've done my work.  I'm thinking that doing the MA would be very useful.  I'm going to apply for that as soon as I can get my personal statement together - this is going to be quite tricky, because I don't really know what to say about my creative writing.  It's just something I've been doing as a hobby.   Oh, I suppose there's the answer, right there: I've been doing it as a hobby, and now I'm ready to start taking it more seriously, taking myself and my writing more seriously.  Hmm.  Yes, I think there's something there.  I'll work on that later.

Right now, I have to pop off and write five hundred words on a ghost story for tomorrow's class.  I'm not sure what I'll write, but something will come to me, I'm sure.

Better go and do that then.  Ta-ra.

Day 18.

I have just done a little cheating, and I have posted four hubs in half an hour!  I cheated because I used some old writing exercises, little short stories that I wrote for a bit of practise a couple of years ago.  It's only a little bit cheating though, because at least they're original and I did actually write them myself.  And it'll be interesting to see whether or not they get any comments.  I don't really know whether people on Hubpages tend to comment on creative writing.  Anyway, it's allowed me to catch up a bit, so I may well make my 30 hubs in 30 days.  I'm just three behind now, so if I write two a day for a few days I should catch up in time.

Today, I have no photos.  I would have posted some from our sparklering this evening, but it would have been dangerous if I'd been concentrating on taking pictures.  Someone would definitely have ended up in A&E if I had not been giving them my full attention.  I think I was very brave for letting my three very small sons use sparklers.  But I let them have them for a good reason: I was always terrified of sparklers, because the safety videos that they used to show at school (still do actually, Thomas and James told me all about them today) put the frighteners on me good and proper (as did the ones about Strangers!)  I've never felt comfortable holding a sparkler.  Actually, it's more so other people holding them around me that's frightening.  When I'm holding one I know I'm in control of it.  If someone else is holding it then they could very easily get distracted or just be a bit silly and stick it right in my eye (and it would be like that shot that you see of a soldier getting a flaming arrow right in the eye in Robin Hood: Prince of Thieves - have you seen it?)  I'm not so afraid of being burned - it's the stabbiness of the rod, the pokingness of it, the fact that it could really do some damage even when not lit.  Anyway, I let the boys have sparklers and they were very good indeed, very safe and very sensible and calm.  They knew that they had to wrap up, put on gloves and stand at a safe distance from each other.  Matthew, of course, did not hold his own sparkler - Kev held it, and Matthew put his gloved hand over the top of Kev's.  No problem.  But no photos.

The other thing that we did this evening was have a movie night.  And we watched Robin Hood, the one that's got Russell Crowe in it and Cate Blanchett (who is a very beautiful woman, yes indeed, and I do quite fancy her).  It's a good film is that one.  A very good film.  I didn't think there was very much wrong with Russell Crowe's accent - who knows what kind of mixture of dialects it might have been in the twelfth century, and especially if he'd been off crusading in foreign parts for ten years.  Yep, I can make those allowances I think :)  Thomas and James loved it, and James asked if he can sometimes watch it in the morning before school :)  And they kept saying to each other, during the film, 'are you enjoying this film?' 'Yeah, it's good, isn't it?'  Cuties.

Right, much productivity achieved this evening.  Time to go to sleep.  Nothing will be achieved tomorrow because we're off to the park to watch the Big Fireworks.  Have fun everybody, and stay safe :)
  

Day 15.

Ooh, I may not manage to get the 30 hubs done in the 30 days.  I'm quite far behind now, must have about six hubs that need writing.  And now I also have a small Creative Writing homework to do - I have to start the writing of a ghost story.  It's only a five-week course, but if I enjoy it I might do it again in the new year.  A few of the people on the course seem to have been there before.  I enjoyed it, by the way :)  It was lovely.  Did a little bit of writing, to do with memories, and generating ideas for stories.  It was very nice to hear the work of other people - I do love that, hearing different writing styles, and listening to how different people interpret the same instructions.  It's always good for making me consider other ways of doing things.  

Tomorrow is my first childfree morning since Barbados - yes, I know, I'm not complaining, I'm just saying, that's all.  But this will be the first time I've had to write for quite a while.  I just couldn't write a thing in Barbados, because I was too busy chatting to people and doing nice relaxing things and drinking free cocktails.  Three hours to myself.  I will try to start my ghost story for next week.  And then I will try to get a couple of hubs done - theoretically they should be writable in half an hour, but they never are because I day dream a lot.  In my little 'this is me' introduction at CW tonight I said that I'm easily distracted, and that I start of writing one thing and then have an idea and end up writing that instead.  That's what I do, and I do it the most on these free mornings.  Terrible.  

Well, it's late.  I'd better get some sleep if I'm going to be creative tomorrow.  Night y'awl.

  

Day 9.

Cor, I posted three hubs today :D  I'm about to go and check on them, to see if they've been read by anyone.  I'm catching up a little.  I'm just one hub short now, and I'll write that in a minute.  It's very much fun, and I'm enjoying it thoroughly.  It would probably be very nice to be able to get paid a nice wage to just ramble on about whatever I fancy - but that'll never 'appen!

Today has gone very, very quickly.  We didn't achieve a great deal really, apart from me posting those hubs.  Me and Thomas and James went into town and enjoyed a bit of coffee/hot chocolate/blueberry juice/Belgian waffle/marshmallow twizzles/cheesy chip fest.  That was nice, to eat rubbish for the day.  We felt full to the brim with stodge, so enjoyed some nice vegetables and salmon for tea :)  This is all a bit boring for a reader eh?  Reading about what my family and I have eaten today?  What the hell am I on about?  Who cares?!  Actually, I can't really help it, I'm watching 'Masterchef' on the telly :oS

I've nothing else to say.  Oh yes, I have.  Did anyone see 'Catherine''s comment on my blog the other day, about Postgrad tuition fees?  She reckoned that the fees won't really go up for the MA that I'm wanting to take, so I'm going to look into that a bit more.  She has given me tremendous hope.  The only thing I was wondering about, to do with the MA, is if I end up also applying to do the BSc Midwifery, will they think I'm a little crackers and flaky and indecisive if they read on my application that I've just done an MA in something completely not related to their subject?  It's a problem, when you have two ambitions that you want to pursue - the question is, will I be able to achieve both, or will one of them have to die a death before I've even started?  Hmm.  We'll see.  I'll just see how things pan out.

Waffley, waffley, waffley, waffle.  Blogging when one has nothing much to say is a bit silly!

Lx.